She wasn't one of those typical looking women. She wasn't pretty in the glossy magazine sense. But the kind of beautiful that she is was completely unforgetable. She was and still is unnervingly lovely. Her eyes so dark green they could almost be black, her hair this odd mix of chocolate and cherry. Her skin unfashionably pale, like a painting from some other time. Tall for a woman but still shorter than me, her arms slender carrying too many shopping bags, a baguette poking out and getting in her way. Her figure was different to now, she was plumper than she is today. Soft feminine curve that made me think about becoming a father. Curvy heart shaped arse and breasts squashed into a too small bra for effect.
She hadn't seen me, but aware of the other guys at the bus stop, I could tell she was holding her tummy in. She pretended not to notice me sitting on that bench watching her directly, but I know she did. I pretended to read my newspaper and drink my coffee and innocently we played that look/look away game. We did this for some time, my tummy imitating the tattoo on her arm. Butterfly that to this day gives me shivers.
Once she was safe on the bus and seated she bravely looked directly at me. Right into my eyes with a smirk twist of her thin lips. That electric and you know I am not exaggerating the way it feels when there is something between two people. Like a soft magnetic punch in the heart and you could shriek with joy! You could honestly burst like a star and I am aware how gay that sounds but even now when I think about it, I dont give two shades of shit how it sounds.
Folding up my paper and throwing away the remainder of my coffee, I remember walking down the road and taking note of everything. The time, the road name, the shop names, the bus stop she was at...everything and I wasn't afraid or panicked or sad or anything because I knew (I just knew) I would definitely see her again.
Different to all the other women I have known, I am defined and brought into existence with just one of her looks.

Just as easily, she can take all that away the same way.